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January 8, 2006

Dare I keep the dream going?

Two weeks into my old world of working, running Karsten to preschool, coordinating childcare, holding down the fort while Andy conquers the mobile world, I remember now that my life here is crazy. Just before I almost let myself get sucked back into being crippled into immobilization by daily craziness I let myself dream and threw myself a few liferopes.

1. Maybe we should move. I can't believe I'm typing this. I'd resolved that I'd die in my house but just maybe we could really live in our dream home. My mind is already trying to determine where the hot tub should go. I mentioned this to Andy this has started him scheming too.

2. I could start my own business. I have a meeting next week with a potential partner.

3. I could move to Scotland. Yes, I know, Scotland! Probably wouldn't have a hot tub or a view of Mt. Rainier there but it would keep the travel adventure alive. I emailed our development center there and yes, they do need a part-time designer.

4. I can be more creative in my daily life. Amber got a letterpress and I've already invited myself over for play time.

But maybe I'm just being selfish by dragging my kids along with my crazy dreams and ambitions. A diatribe of Robbie H runs through my head, "I am done with Gen X women. Women born in the 70s were raised to believe they can have it all but really they can't." Yes, yes, this is probably just Robbie's way of justifying dating girls barely legal but still sometimes, even if I cringe to admit it, he does have a point.

My life is good but maybe it could be great if I don't get too scared to keep dreaming and moving.

Posted by jana at January 8, 2006 5:50 AM